listening to Adele and feeling good.
The family is watching the hockey game. I am in the kitchen, listening to music.
Maybe i need to do something... maybe not. I feel different. Dont know how or why, but in some way different. It doesnt have to be a bad different... i am different. Different is good. i think... im not really sure anymore. Not really sure about much nowadays. Im just... just... (?)... nothing? everything? I am not sure anymore.
When i get the question; "how are you?" i answer; "im good! you?...", even though im not. Its just something you do! or i do. it has become a reflex - to respond with a positive answer, since it is the more pleasant alternative to get!
I believe i am lost in what i am doing at the moment. Most things feels medium, regular, and/or blah. Im floating in this story called "life". I want to walk, with firm steps! But, instead i float.
i need
- a haircut
- new shoes
- new make-up
- better nails
- a longer body to fit in longer clothes
- another job
- more money
- to work out more
- get to bed earlier than 3 am
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